I don't know

My wife is pissed that I made up a blog on another site. I thought I could make it private but it didn't work. I really felt like I need to blog at that time because I was really really made. At that time, I felt like she ruined my b-day, and was being too damned stubborn to admit she was wrong. So my blogging apparently didn't help anything. Also she is pissed at my porn and porno links. I moved them so she wouldn't have to see them. And I was going to remove them once I was sure I had them backed up. That way she won't have to see them on the computer. Sure, it's my computer and I don't see why it should bother her. However she is a woman and feels insecure that I look at pictures of beautiful women and that she doesn't feel that attractive. Yes I know I should do something about this. I just don't know what to do right now. I'm working on it. I will do something about it. It's just hard to do something about it right now with her ridding me about it. And I don't want to do anything about it when she's here. So the porn and my blogs I feel like she's breathing down my neck and it makes me uncomfortable. And I don't think she really understands at all. We've been married for almost 8 months. Before Monique I was never married. I was a bachelor, and no one I have been with had a problem with my porno issue. And when Monique and I got married I never thought she'd do a 360 on me and have an issue with it. Now I need to do something about it, and I'm completely unprepared to just stop it cold turkey. I get porn emailed to me, and it's a free commodity. I'm not buying magazines. However if I didn't have my porn emailed to me. Then I feel like I'd want a magazine subscription. I want to involve my wife in all facets of my life. It's just hard to do it immediately when she doesn't understand. And I try explaining to her that I do understand her point of view. That I am sorry for my faults. I just can't drop this cold turkey under these circumstances. Monique and I sometimes work very different schedules. Sometimes I'm home alone. And with that stuff in my email. I'm trying to clear it out. And I know it sounds stupid. Why don't I just delete all of that crap. Then on the other hand. Why do I have to? A part of me feels like I'm not hurting anyone. And on the other hand I do respect my wife. It's just hard to comply when you feel like you are being forced to, especially before you are ready. So yeah, it's a habit, compulsion, addiction. It's my cross to bear. I need help, but I don't need a monkey on my back trying to get the monkey on there off. One makes noise, the other one doesn't.